I'm pasting an email I sent to my teacher last night because I can't take writing this in detail one more time.....
I was excited about spring break once I finished my last midterm this afternoon, but a phone call stopped that.
First, some background: I work part time as an athletic tutor here at
LU. This afternoon while studying for my astronomy midterm, I got
several "Important" labeled emails from the secretary in the Athletics
Department. She said that tutoring was canceled for tonight
(7:30-10:30) but we were having an emergency meeting about an incident
that occurred earlier. I had my astronomy test at the same time, so all
I could do was email back the secretary and my supervisor and let her
know that I couldn't make it but I'd call someone once I was done.
After the astronomy test, I texted one of the other tutors to ask her
what was up. I didn't get a response till she called back an hour or so
later (6ish?). Apparently...(I'm losing it again, sorry) one of the
tutors, Mo who is from Portugal, was at his apartment last night or
early this morning and was shot. The hardest part? He didn't make it.
He's gone. I have been knocked off my feet over this news and couldn't
imagine a better next angel:) It's hard seeing someone for 4 days a
week, a few hours each day, and now knowing that he's....gone...till
heaven.
I know he's in a much, much better place right now, and frankly part of
my feelings have a touch of jealousy in them:) But at the same time,
I've seen him every week since August, and now to keep reminding myself
that he won't be returning is tough. Although, the good part of this
timing is that I have a week to mourn his death but praise God for his
life. He was a strong Christian and a wealth of encouragement to
everyone he met.
Please keep me, the other tutors, the athletes, his girlfriend, and all
the other lives he touched. They are holding a memorial service in
honor of Mo (short for Moises, pronounced "Moses") Friday from 3-4. I'm debating if I want to go - I don't grieve
well at all.
At least I got a bit of sleep...thank God for random old friends that I can call at 1am to talk.
a tough day it has been...i remember the last conversation i had with him on monday night...It is good to know, though, that he is in a better place...I'm debating going to the service as well...because I too, have trouble when I'm grieving. I had trouble sleeping last night too; I couldn't get his face out of my head. Anyway have a good spring break. we'll get through this together. it's very hard though. As much as I want to run from God right now, I know he is the only one who will truly give me peace. I don't know why i'm writing all this to you, probably just to help myself grieve a little better, and probably because i haven't had a chance to talk to anyone else who knew him. ~Rachel
@WestieJ5 - yeah i completely understand. i found my fiance just before his class was starting. he saw my red eyes and immediately went into his class and told his professor that he'd be late. we then went to jazzmans...unfortunately we went RIGHT through the hallway, and i was waiting for his face to just pop around the corner...yeah i'm sitting in convo and bawling lol. and me without any form of tissues. i don't even have sleeves! anyway, we should definitely hang out sometime after break - God bless!
I'm so sorry about your friend & will be praying for you. I looked him up through Josh's facebook & he seemed like a nice/good person. **hugs**
Thanks. By the time the memorial started, I had finally been able to stop crying - they mentioned it in convo, his parents had flown in, and i just couldn't keep it together until 3ish. Mo was one of the sweetest guys in the world, and it will be very hard to continue once we're back from break. But I know one thing: He got the best spring "break" out of all of us.:)
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a tough day it has been...i remember the last conversation i had with him on monday night...It is good to know, though, that he is in a better place...I'm debating going to the service as well...because I too, have trouble when I'm grieving. I had trouble sleeping last night too; I couldn't get his face out of my head. Anyway have a good spring break. we'll get through this together. it's very hard though. As much as I want to run from God right now, I know he is the only one who will truly give me peace. I don't know why i'm writing all this to you, probably just to help myself grieve a little better, and probably because i haven't had a chance to talk to anyone else who knew him. ~Rachel
@WestieJ5 - yeah i completely understand. i found my fiance just before his class was starting. he saw my red eyes and immediately went into his class and told his professor that he'd be late. we then went to jazzmans...unfortunately we went RIGHT through the hallway, and i was waiting for his face to just pop around the corner...yeah i'm sitting in convo and bawling lol. and me without any form of tissues. i don't even have sleeves! anyway, we should definitely hang out sometime after break - God bless!
I'm so sorry about your friend & will be praying for you. I looked him up through Josh's facebook & he seemed like a nice/good person. **hugs**
@GuessWhoItsAle -
Thanks. By the time the memorial started, I had finally been able to stop crying - they mentioned it in convo, his parents had flown in, and i just couldn't keep it together until 3ish. Mo was one of the sweetest guys in the world, and it will be very hard to continue once we're back from break. But I know one thing: He got the best spring "break" out of all of us.:)